The Undiet Journey: Becoming Me

This is the beginning. The beginning of becoming who I am. I know to most of you your thinking, we know who you are...your Michele. Yes, I am! And I do know who I am too. But, I do know that who I am is not healthy, is not happy the way I look, I will not change entirely. Rather, I am going to change my lifestyle to be a healthier and happier me. Starting tomorrow morning, the way I look at, cook and eat food is going to change.

Starting this blog is going to make me accountable for my actions. Starting this blog will help with my journey and I can see, you can see the change that is going to happen. Starting this blog gives me support. Starting this blog keeps me going. Its not going to be easy that I know.

I said starting tomorrow but really the start is right now, the second I publish this post. The first step of this journey is admission. For me to admit to myself out loud that I am overweight..no, I am obese. There I said it....do I feel better? Nope. Does it change anything Nope. But, to admit I have a problem, like anything is the first step in anything. I can go on and keep asking how did I get this way. Point blank, I ate, or rather I didn't eat. I have very bad eating habits. You probably just asked yourself, "did she just say she got this way by not eating". Yes, that's exactly what I said. I have very bad eating habits. I get up, and I go. I always have. Just go. I don't eat breakfast, mistake number one! I then can go all day, yes ALL DAY! Without eating. Not good. Finally when I do sit down and I eat dinner, not over eat, not eat the entire house and not stop. Dinner. A normal dinner. So what happens (or so I learned today) My body is starving, so what ever I eat it stores as fat, and my metabolism slows down to a crawl, and my body uses what little muscle I have as energy. I'm not saying I don't have a sweet tooth, or like a candy bar, if I said that you all would laugh and call me a liar. You know I love chocolate and sweets, but I don't eat and eat and eat. I have bad eating habits period. I am going to change that, staring NOW. I have to say for a fat lady I am healthy. I don't have high blood pressure, I am not a diabetic, my cholesterol is perfect, my body doesn't hurt...YET! I am on borrowed time before my body says woahhhhh there lady, your killing me. I don't want to wait for a heart attack or for my doc to say you need medicine for your blood pressure or diabetes. I don't want a scare to force me to eat healthier and to live a healthy lifestyle I don't want to wait for that day, I'm not going to, I am staring now.

Do I like myself? YUP! Do I like how I look? Nope. I hate shopping for clothes, bras, anything. I struggle every time I go shopping. Sure I can pretend to go in a store and look at something, try it on and say it flatters me, but really who am I kidding. This journey is going to allow me to look at myself differently and maybe 6 months from now I can go shopping and actually like what I try on..no, like how things LOOK ON ME when I try them on.

Okay so I am jumping ahead. I am going to take this day by day and week by week. Today I had my first weigh in by my very good friend Tammy. (HUGS TAMMY) She weighed me, measured me, and took pictures. I do have the stats (except my weight), which I am not ready to disclose, please don't even try to guess. I will disclose everything else even the pictures. Just to give me accountability. And to show you all my transformation. She will keep taking measurements over the next 12 weeks and I will disclose everything.
Today I went shopping. I bought everything I need for my week. My first week will be a cleanse, a detox. I am going to clean my body. Its going to be HARD. I plan on sharing with you all the good, the bad and the ugly.
My week will consist of A LOT of fruit, veggies and water lots and lots of water. I am cooking now as I write. Cooking spaghetti squash and veggie soup. I have made berry zinger tea for the week. I cleaned out all the junk for temptation. I have a 64oz water bottle ready to go. I am ready.
So here it is, time to face the truth, here are my stats:
Age: 35
Height: 5' 3"
Weight (not ready to share)
Waist: 43
Hips: 52
Chest: 47
Bicep L: 17.5
Bicep R: 17
Thigh: L: 27
Thigh: R:26
Pant size: 20
Shirt: 1 or 2x
Yes that was embarrassing, but I told you that I was going to be open.
In closing, just to say thank you to anyone who plans on supporting me, following my journey and being there for me. HUGS! :o)
In the future, I plan on posting recipes, things that worked, didn't work and links. I will try blog daily and I will share my progress weekly. Thanks for joining my blog!
Much love,
Michele